I could see several things in her eyes…
tinge of anger….
She said she just wished she could escape….
Tired of dealing with people.
It was late yesterday afternoon.
I stopped by unannounced to talk about hiring one of her boys.
She asked me to come in.
Apologized for how she looked. Said she just finished cleaning the cat’s litter box and didn’t like to wear good clothes doing that nasty job.
We talked briefly about my work situation, how I’d come to hear that one of her sons might be looking for work. Then the conversation just sort of meandered to talking about the needed repairs on her house, cuts in government funding that were directly affecting her work situation, the pushy contractor who’d stopped last year to get her to hire him to shingle her house with his crew of Mexicans. What bothered her was the way he talked about the crew…
When I got back to the car, where my wife was patiently waiting, I told her the stop had been a success. Mother was going to give her son my phone #, let him know I’d stopped.
We will see.
I woke up this morning still thinking about the weariness I saw in her eyes.
That sense of wanting to just get out of town…to flee/ to escape to a quiet place…I’ve been there myself. More so during those years when the kids were little. Trying to balance job pressures, marriage pressures, money pressures/ sick kids…Some of you know what I’m talking about..
I’m sure she didn’t realize it but she was quoting scripture almost verbatim:
” ….I said, “Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest. “Behold, I would wander far away, I would lodge in the wilderness.” Psalm 55:6,7
Words written 3000 years ago by man under intense pressure.
After we left her house, we stopped one of our state parks.
We saw just one van, other than that, we had the park completely to ourselves. Some large bird, either an owl or a hawk, flew in low/ through the trees as we drove in. We walked through an empty camp ground down to the lake. The ice was starting to melt. A pair of Canadian geese weren’t sure what do think of us. After doing a lot of honking they eventually took off. They circled around to the North and landed a couple of hundred yards away. I’d never seen geese land on ice before 🙂
We walked across an old iron free span bridge built in 1878. I looked at the 3/4 inch thick metal plating the bridge was built out of. Moss covered metal. I wondered out loud if the nuts that held the struts together had ever been turned since 1878…
That’s how my mind works sometimes…
As I sit here this morning thinking about running to the locker, I am surrounded by quietness.
It is not going to be that way much longer. The frost is almost out of the ground.. I have a butt load of work ahead of me this year. 8 house roofs, some concrete flat work, a large addition, and I just found out last week, my brother-in-law is still wanting me to help him build a new house. I told him it would be late Fall before I was available.
The challenge will be to not let the details and pressures of the jobs, choke out the peace and quiet that I have intentionally structured into my life.
How do you like to unwind?